At the beginning of the day yesterday, my new principle said something that I would like to remember forever.
This is a time where you can be a completely different person than before, a better person or just be you. Be the you that you want to be.
That inspired me a lot. I don’t know why, but it affected me. I know that I can change the way I am, but I don’t think I want to. I am me, and I don’t think there’s anything I want to change. Ok, maybe the anxiety and shyness part, but other than that; nothing. I am just going to try to stay like I am for the rest of my life. Yes, I have bad days; where I can be the biggest bitch around, but I have good days too. I think today was a good day for me. I made two friends in my class, I can’t remember their names yet, but I’m sure I’ll remember to remember their names.
Even though I made friends, I still feel so awkward. I don’t know where to place myself. Considering the teachers all over my country are protesting against something, I have no idea what is, there are barely people at school. When I was taking the bus to school, my friends from my “childhood” was waiting for the bus home. That’s when I was going to school, to have three periods. It’s just so weird for me, I don’t know where I fit in. I don’t fit in with the people from my class that I already know, yes I talk to them on the bus, but that’s basically it. Other than that, I am completely lost. In the lessons as well, I feel completely stupid. Everyone is so smart, then there’s me. I don’t know the answer to anything that has to do with school. School isn’t for me, but I need an education right? If I want to do anything productive with my life anyways. I’m not saying that some jobs aren’t productive, but I want to make a difference to someone. I don’t know with what yet, but I want to make a difference.
Until next time.